Wrote this while two people in my life are actively dying, Mr. John Meehan, a friend and mentor, and my cousin’s husband, Larry Winger. May God grant them peace…
Well, I’m feeling better – yes! The pneumonia and bronchitis that could have killed my crippled, crumpled little body didn’t, new medication stopped my seemingly endless menstrual flow (and another new medication is on the horizon to, hopefully, shrink the huge uterine fibroids) and the usual treatment was able to put a mild Crohn’s disease flareup at ease. Phew. There is always the knowledge that I could catch another chest cold at any time, but I’m trying not to live in worry anymore.
And, of course, I still can’t walk, move my arms, hold my head upright, take care of myself, or breathe without rocking my body, but, for me, that’s just everyday, like the small stuff. Don’t sweat the small stuff.
Because of all this, I feel a little more deeply into the season of Lent, which began with the reminder “Remember you are dust, and unto dust you shall return.” Lent, as I have written before, isn’t about doom and gloom but, rather, about preparing to live eternally – yet, this is also a what makes Lent a really good time of year to prepare to die. Having recently experienced the fragile mortality of my body in an up close and personal way, I have been thinking about death more – and differently. Preparing to live eternally and preparing to die are, in reality, the same thing.
Are You Prepared to Die?
Death is part of life and, so, it should be lived. In our mainstream culture, we often think that it’s morbid, unhealthy, and just plain wrong to think about dying while we are living. Many people don’t even want to talk about death at all. It’s as though we think that, if we don’t think about it or talk about it, then it won’t come.
Ha. It’s coming, like it or not. Continue reading